Jesus Christ! My future husband Eddie spears is singing happy bday to one lucky girl. Am i jealous? No. Am i a liar? Yes!
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I THOUGHT I WOULD BE SOMEWHERE DIFFERENT IN MY LIFE, SOMWHERE BETTER BUT ACTUALLY, I'M EVEN DEEPER IN THE TOILET BOWL NOW THAN I WAS LAST YEAR. LMAOOOOOOO FMMFL I DO NOT WANT TO DEAL WITH THIS BULLSHIT RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY THAT'S ALL!! IS THAT REALLY SO MUCH TO ASK FOR? IS THERE SOMETHING I NEED TO DO LIKE GIVE TO CHARITY OR GO TO CHURCH SO THAT SOMETHING GOOD COULD ACTUALLY HAPPEN TO ME? I FEEL LIKE I NEVER HAVE ANY LUCK WITH ANYTHING AT ALL WHILE MEANTIME, EVERYBODY AND THEIR MOTHER GETS EVERYTHING THEY EVER WANTED!! ALL I WANT IS HAPPINESS!!
I'm sick of people going for the bitches/assholes that don't even deserve them! Like the stupid guys who pay no mind to the good girl they're with but they wanna go fuck around with the trick that's more than likely to fuck their cousin, friend, enemy and neighbor behind their back. How about the dumbass girl who won't go for the good guy who'd do anything for her and treat her like a princess cuz they wanna be with the asshole guy who's constantly putting her down and will one day probably beat her ass and mess with the next hot chick just because he's bored.
Tell me, is this the life I'm supposed to be living? Is this the "Happiness" I'm supposed to be feeling? Why do I fee like I'm missing much of something? And I have yet to see really what purpose life is holding.
Oh I'm sure everyone says the same but, I thought I'd be doing something else with my life by now. This is not at all what I expected! But then again, life never ever goes the direction you thought or hoped it would. I guess I have to take responsibility for my own actions though because I COULD HAVE changed things at one point or another in the past. But the past is behind me now so what can I possibly do? I know its not to late to change things. I mean I feel like I'm not as strong as some people. Not strong enough to make that change. It is possible, but I'm one of those who needs a little push first and I have no one to give me that right now. I'd hate to say I'm a weak person. I mean I'm weak just in the sense that I'm too afraid of change. Afraid to get out of my comfort zone! But I know if that doesn't change one day or another, I will be constantly telling myself, I wish I could go back and do this and that over a different way. I don't want to be an old woman with an empty feeling in my soul..all because I was afraid! Fear is only a four letter word and that's all it should be.
P.C. of KNGDM (TWITTER.COM/KEEPITMOVEMENT)